No one escapes the dark night of the soul. Saint and sinner struggle through the emptiness, abandonment, and the panic of the void. Mother Teresa voices her angst to her spiritual confidant, the Rev. Michael van der Peet. She writes, “Jesus has a very special love for you,...[But] as for me, the silence and the emptiness is so great, that I look and do not see, — Listen and do not hear — the tongue moves [in prayer] but does not speak ... I want you to pray for me — that I let Him have [a] free hand."

Jesus predicted Mother Teresa's struggle just as He foretold our own haggling between doubt and belief, fear and fulfillment. As the disciples confidently faced their walk toward the Garden of Gethsemane, Jesus announced a given, "All of you will have your faith shaken ...but after I have been raised up, I shall go before you to Galilee.

It's almost as if Jesus takes the pressure off his friends by acknowledging the inevitability of their doubt. And then promises to meet up with them in Galilee. It's profoundly comforting that Mother Teresa struggled with belief and that from the cross Jesus called forth his gut wrenching question: "Father, why have you abandoned me?"

If it’s good enough for Jesus, good enough for Mother Teresa then there must be good in faith that has the authenticity of doubt. Ultimately trust in a loving God who has our back, who moves in the details of our life and who rallies around us through our friends is a graced choice, much deeper than feeling. Savor the times of intimacy with Christ, don't be surprised by times of distance, and remember that the fingerprints of the Divine mark our joy and our heartache even if the evidence seems quite faint.